I GOT INTO 3/3....... AHHHHH!!!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.... omg i'm going mad.... yeah u know today when my mum's car was nearing sch i was really really very frightened.... i was afraid that i dint get into the class i wanted.... and i was afraid too.... of wad everyone will say.... cos i rebonded my hair AGAIN....... yes yes i know...... once i stepped into class (i dint everyone wil be there early)..... everybody started shouting at me.... JW even came and pulled away my rubber band..... yeah thanks for those who said i looked nicer..... actually everyone did..... not said lahz.... budden i dunno..... i won't think anyone will be that evil to like say that it's gross and everything....... hiya! i dunno lahz..... yeah i know most of u aren't used to looking at me with straight hair...... dun worry..... i wasn't used to it too....... i took 3 days to get it rite.... so yeah.... wellz.... i dunno why i suddenly wanted to go also.. but since i went, no choice lorz..... oh man tml got training...... imagine wad everyone will say....... nvm..... heck.... talking to chin chye and jessie t now..... i dunno lahz..... u know i'm so scared, happy, sad, excited, a mixture of ALOT of feelings....... how? i'm going nuts..... taht's wad i told them..... really! sad- i dun wanna leave 2/3...... i'm gonna miss u pple lorz..... esp those that are really close to me... now i hope i get into prefects.... well i'm not ready to lose my partner.... i'll miss u Z... and the noisy talktative parrot chiogal too... and pamster.... thanks for being there for me..... i'll really miss u all.... wad am i gonna do w/o u pple....... oh no i'm gonna cry....... and yeah amanda for well asking me if i were alright and supporting me thru my sec 1 problems.... jessie t for all the hugs that u've gave me..... thanks i really appreciate.... and that u cared.... dalvin! our fav chairperson... oh gosh.... best fren..... who's ognna be protecting me.... beansprout will miss ur crazy laughter...... alwiz giggling like dunno wad..... oh eyah ms saedah said we shld go out some day.... JW for all ur sillyness and ur bombastic words and most of all ur cursive writing....... meryl for being ever so noisy in class and dirty and skinny and thin..... yeah..... petty for being nice to me... lauren for being such a great fren..... altho u alwiz bully me.... qk for being such a gd teacher and for ur last min chinese tuition.... fifi thanks for alwiz being there for me and ur hugs r alwiz ready..... altho i won't want a kiss.... THANKEW EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!! sry if i missed u guyz out.... budden those whom i knwo going to 3/3 obviuosly no need say these stuff..... grace, emily, chye, denise, hana, mummy, lam lam, horsey see u all next year 3/3..... i dunno who else there is..... i'm really sry if i missed u out.... oh yes and carrie.... hiyo..... i really feel mixed up....... confused..... i dunno how i really feel now.... esp with the thing.... dun think dirty..... that refers to smth i ahve in my head but i can't tell u all...... altho i told one person alr....... i was too desperate....... haiz.... no mood to blog alr..... bye... wait.. let's thank those pple that goes into 3/3 too.....

grace- thanks for alwiz being there for me.... and being such a great and capable sis... remember.... alwiz hang in there..... emily- thanks for replying so fast to my sms.... helping me in alot of aspects..... thankew! chye- wellz for u i have lots to say.... thanks for being there... dun look down on urself yeah? u shldn't.... u're really capable and have hidden abilities... u shld show them... remember the msg..... shan't reveal too much..... denise- yeah smart gurl.... thanks for keeping me company b4 my mum fetches me back..... i'm not implying u have no patience....... search within u to look for the ans.... hana- thanks alot for that hug.... i really needed it... u may not remember it... but i do..... and the mrs nicholas incident is still vivid in my mind..... omg..... i'm re-living wad she said to me again.... i can really quote wad she said up to this day....... nono STOP! i'll go nuts like this..... stop it stop it stop it..... and dun use so much jap cos i dunno wad u talking bout..... mummy- heyz gurl i told u u could make it rite? i dint lie, glad u listened to me and dint put 3/9 first choice..... it would have been a waste.... i'll alwiz be here yeah.... so dun worry.... lam2- u arhz.... laugh laugh laugh.... haha... glad to have known u.... u were there for me too at times..... thanks for that..... anything (i hope there's none) can sms me yeah? horsey- thanks for being such a nice horsey altho i know i cna't ride u... ur back will juz break off... haha.... finally carrie- i know u were like wadda hell i'm in the same class as u next year and everything....... i juz hope u'll behave urself more..... and concentrate juz a teeny weeny bit more on ur studies.... i won't interfere too too much yeah? nice to sit beside u... less boring during lessons... *smiles.... THANKS EACH AND EVERYONE OF U IN 2/3 2003!!!!!! U HAVE BRIGHTENED MY LIVES THESE TWO YEARS!!!!! *MUACKS!!! HUGS TO ALL OF U....

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boo! heyz i blogged budden dint post lahz.... so dun nag yeah? let's talk bout yesterday..... went to british council..... for a placement test.... got 66/80, not very satisfied.... wanted to get smth like above 70.... interview wuz quite gd.... 7/8.... haha.... i'm not that gd to score full marks.... then went to the cafeteria...... ok....... i'm gonna start complaining..... there was this couple lahz..... look damn china kind..... then they were sitting beside me..... my mum went off to pay the fees...... and then the woman (i tell u i hate them.... so i'm being really rude lahz) was talking to the man..... and then the man was looking at ME...... so obviously i thot he was talking to me when he was replying to her....... so obviously i went HUH? and the idiotic woman was like laugh laugh laugh..... the man also.... then she said walau so suah ku..... i was practically BOILING ok....... i wanted to slap her across the face.... and i wanted to scold her with words that i've nvr used b4..... i stopped eating completely... only continued sipping my lemon tea..... i was thinking how dare she say that of me....... and moreover, she was talking bout how she had grown prettier..... i was so bloody pissed.... guess why? cos she is NOT in the least bit chio..... omg..... and the guy received a phone call..... he talked so damn loudly the whole cafeteria could hear him..... and he was speaking in such broken and rude hokkien....... excuse me, we're at the british council..... i wanted to remind him....... no manners... evil person.... i sat them for more than 20 minutes..... feeling so sick..... i've NVR EVER been SOOO humiliated in my life..... talk bout me? wad bout u man.... u've so rugged.... idiots..... even my parents scold me i only felt angry..... this time i felt so humiliated.... i was close to explosion.... finally....... my mum came back and they left... i complained to my mum like hell..... and she agreed with me.... she was like when i came back they were talking..... and the guy kept staring me down.... but i juz ignored him....... then my mum siad dun care obut this kind of pple..... they have no callible..... and that if the woman was so pretty.... why did the guy hafta look at me and my mum when she was talking? so rude.... neways.... i hate them....... i felt so pissed........ juz pure THINKING bout it makes my blood boil....... ARGH!!!!!!!! stupid shit idiots..... i hate u!!!!!! i'm on the verge of killing pple again..... AHHHH!!!! i feel like throwing all the words on them........ shit-faced idiots!!!! i can't believe it....... ok i guess u all can't believe i'm that vulgar also..... sheesh..... i juz can't stand them....... no mood to blog alr..... spoil my mood..... i'm gonna bathe...... humph!!!!!

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ok.... here i am again..... i'm online so many times this week.... four... emily counted..... broke record man.... haha.... today's the class bbq.... i dint go....... cos my mum dint allow.... she was like at night? no! haha.... i shld've known....... neways my dad's overseas..... i have a secret... and i'm dying to tell u all..... nvm.... shall keep my mouth sealed... till tues when u all see me u all will know..... ha! keep u all in suspence....... okok.... some of u alr know.... dun tell kiaz? shhhh....... haha....

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yoz.... it's a sunday and i'm so lethargic.... not many pple are online.... BORED! is one word i'll use to describe myself...... oh wellz.. wadeva.... i'm so crappy lahz.... hiya..... how to type a long entry? also nth happened..... trainings were and are tiring........ practised quite alot of music........ as usual got pissed at my mum and stuff..... oh yah!

my dad was VERY disappointed with my results? haha.... i have absolutely NO comments.... i did so much better than last year.... and last year he dint even say anything to my horrible results...... this year, esp for final year, i worked so bloody hard and wad happens? he thinks the results are bad, way outta his standard..... and wad's his standard? 80%..... simple for HIM to say..... difficult to do... he said he expect 90...... but wanted me to ENJOY my childhood years..... so he would be satisfied with 80%...... gawd..... haiz....... nvm..... the most i'll juz try.. TRY! yes i know i shldn't brood over stuff that has passed..... but i dunno....... i hope i'll be able to get into 3/3...... and yeah..... i wish my gd frenz'll all come too.... but i know it's impossible....... oh wellz... juz talking to a few frenz..... well..... one of them's not in wad u can call a very gd mood.. not even gd i shld say..... it's lonely being in the house alone lahz... i know.... dun worry.... can call me anytime..... budden so late where u wanna go? it's so dangerous and u live so faraway...... of cos i won't permit if u weren't gonna tell me where u're heading..... i know i dun have any say in this..... but can u like please take GD care of urself and EAT!!! regularly..... everyday! and she's telling me that i dun hafta be worried for her!!!! omgosh... yes i can.... do u want that to happen? i can't be bothered to argue with u lahz....... neways juz know that i care.... and i dunno why also....... cos i treat u as my gd frenz.... can?

dun feel like updating alr.... no mood.... my cousins came today...... played with them.... gosh i'm so childish..... but nvm lahz..... few days ago went orchard..... at far east saw christiana and christine and sondra i think....... neways..... i'll link u pple and relink and everything the next time ok? sry but i'm damn lazy nowadays..... ciao!

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